I used to think it was just a silly song...

It really does make sense now.


A small part of me is saying I still have a chance
The rest of me is laughing at the first part
For being so naive
I don't know what to do but
I wanna tell you something...
I wanna tell you something
I'm a fuck up now
I don't know what I'm doing
I let my guard down once
My whole life is ruined
I try to give it up
I try to think it through
I saw you just last night
Couldn't even talk to you
If I could treat you like shit then you'd love me forever
At least I'm working now
This is my second day
I hate it so much here
I do it anyway
It doesn't help at all
what you've done to me
I'm going crazy
I think about you constantly
If I could treat you like shit then you'd love me forever.

I'm just a little bit tired, that's all

I'm approaching the 48 hour mark. I don't sleep so well when you're not by my side. I am tired, tired beyond tired. I just can't bring myself to do it though.

This isn't me.

This is me with you.

This, sadly, is me without you.

I am forcing my eyelids closed. Every time the crickets sing, I pretend its you calling and my eyes are wide again. I know its a stretch, but at this time of night its just me, my thoughts, and these loyally deceitful insects.

If I ever do fall asleep, I want to dream of you.

If I never sleep again, it was all worth it.


Come home soon.

Straight Edge and Skateboarding...

2 great flavors that go great together!

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Pre-order here


Also, this company sell this fucking shirt... wow! I want this!

My friend Chris Morgado (Wrestling and Straight Edge)

So Morgado writes this column for a wrestling zine/website... you might be into it if you're following my blog... I think he has a new thing up on Friday's. Since I don't follow wrestling, I don't really understand everything he's talking about when I read it.

I did however read this one and fully agree with the content, as its about Straight Edge and a SxE wrestler called "CM Punk". Straight Edge is definitely for us, by us, and should have nothing to do with the outside world. Only the diehard will remain. xxx.

http://wrestling.insidepulse.com/2009/08/28/the-column-with-no-name-2-cm-punk-is-straight-edge-youre-not/

New parka from Pretty Green (Liam Gallagher's clothing line)

Here’s your chance to own a numbered, limited edition version of the coveted Pretty Green Parka in black. Liam Gallagher has the first edition and Paul Weller has the second. There are only 350 Black Parkas being made worldwide. Each Parka has the edition number clearly marked on the custom-designed garment tag. Keep this tag as proof of your Parka’s authenticity.

Like the original, the Pretty Green black parka is hand-finished and coloured to create an authentic vintage finish.

So cool! WANT!!! http://new.prettygreen.com/shop/product/black-parka/

Self medication...

Breathing keeps most people alive.
Breathing exercises keep me alive.





I hope you know what you got yourself into... The monster inside me can't be talked out of anything.

Today is almost a perfect day...

I woke up to Life's Blood - Never Make A Change, followed by Leatherface - Pandora's Box on random on my iPod alarm clock thingy. I got done in the bathroom and came out to find a text from my beautiful wife, which made my day. (What can I say? I'm easy). I had finally remembered to iron some shirts, so I had a pretty crisp blue gingham check shirt to wear today. It was nice this morning, really cool weather for August, which was dope.

I put the windows down and listened to Death Cab - Narrow Stairs on my way to work, and there was NO traffic at all. I had a meeting today which killed an hour, and Danielle, being as perfect as she is, texted me while I was in the meeting. Nice timing :). I left work for the day at 11:30am and went to get a sammich. I got a call from JJ asking how the married life was and asking when we were going to have babies. He said he was excited to meet Danielle, which is awesome, because, well, its JJ. Ha.

I am now reading a book, listening to Glasvegas' "Home Tapes" (demos) and enjoying a nice breeze.


Things missing from making today a perfect day...

1) Danielle
2) A few people that I was friends with from 1994-2004
3) Swimming
4) Tacos
5) Chicago address on my drivers license